what do you do when there is a really nice guy in front of you and getting to know you and you can't stop smiling?
this would be guy #4 .. we are just friends at the moment. i knew him from another squash club but didn't talk to him much. got to know him over the summer. we exchanged numbers. then he started texting me. when he returned from the squash tournament over the weekend, he sent me a text at 2 am to let me know he was home. we talk on and off at the club - one of those things where you don't want to be so obvious with each other in front of our friends. i have no idea if he's single or not. our discussions don't go there but he has been playing squash on mondays, wednesdays, and fridays. heck, he wouldn't even tell me how old he is - he is definitely older than the rest of the group. it feels awkward for me because i'm still married. if i wasn't married, this guy would be a pretty good catch.
for me, it's just different being with someone who is nice to me for a change. i felt neglected and inadequate for a long time. when someone comes along and talks to you like a human being .. you start to wonder why you're hanging on to someone who doesn't want to be with you.
i won't act on it. i'm still 'married' yet i'm also alone.
