She's in MLC, but I was weak. Now what?

[crushednstuck]

I don't disagree Lance. I've spent a couple days just reading the posts on other threads. Man, there are some wordy, thoughtful folks out there.
I suppose the root of the issue is that I am sort of indifferent at times. I read through the LBS stages thread
http://www.divorcebusting.com/forums/ubbthreads.php?ubb=showflat&Number=1964990&page=1
and found no evidence of the "I don't give a sh** anymore" stage. I am simultaneously in IC and couples counseling (its not MC because she doesn't want to talk about M) and find it emotionally exhausting. Further, I'm not sure I'm getting much out of either. I really don't want to put the effort into picking up another damn book.
Is it possible that I was just angry at the betrayal and that I don't really love her enough to pursue this process further?
I may have entered Depression / Resentment, but I am having a hard time recalling any feelings of intense love for her. Though I could say the same about any relationship of mine - outside of my kids.