Church was great with the kids. The point was a back to school blessing, our pastor talked about all the trials of school. The part that stuck out to me and the reason I post it here is this:
He emphasized on the fact that when someone at school puts you down, it is the person insulting the other who feels weak, or insecure. That made me think a bit, My W says that I have done all these things wrong, when in reality she is putting all her insecurities and guilt on me, and not owning up to her issues. So I think it hit me tonight, she is the one that needs the most healing, and to find out what she has to deal with that makes her the way she is. I dont want to be with her right now, and on the way home her texts firmed that up for me here it goes:
W: Call when you leave church(i had beep off so I didnt get it until we were almost back to my place)
Me:They are asleep in the car
W: U were supposed to let me know when you left
At this point I wanted to go off on her, but I didnt
Me: I just now saw your text
W:Church started at 7 when did you leave church?
Me:What does it matter?
W: Did you even go to church?
At this point the kids were awake, and I had them talk to their Mother. I could over hear her asking if we went to church and stuff like that. S didnt really want to talk to her, but to be respectful I handed him the phone and said talk to your Mother. He talked a bit and the signal faded.
I originally wanted to light her up, but felt it would just get into a pissing contest so that is why I responded the way I did. Should I have lit her up? was I too passive? All I thought about driving back and re reading her texts I felt this is not a way I want to be treated. She didnt ask me, should was telling me what to do. Totally disrespectful which I was going to put the Robx twist on it about the crap behavior, but I think its warly for that. I was calm and just didnt engage the enemy. Im sitting in my foxhole letting her shoot bullets that are just going over my head, as I rest and prepare for tomorrow.
