Realizing that he hasn't loved me as I should have been.
+Irritated by my mistakes +Annoyed with my family and any family stuff (like watching videos, looking at old photos, or visiting hometowns) + Focused on himself.
My dad and my best friend both told me-- at different times and not related to what just happened- that WH talked about himself a lot when he was over after the birth.
I didn't even realize.
But i believe them now.
There was one other thing... well, I forgot.
It's been nice having-- oh, I remember! What I'm typing now is exactly it. It's been nice having NC from him for the past few days.
It's probably a bad sign that I feel so relieved getting away from him.
I had a marriage that made me happy for 8 years. I've got some drama now, but it's okay. Soon enough I will find someone and I will be much smarter about the relationship. And he and I will share 25, maybe 30 years together-- or more!--, assuming we have a regular life span!
That's a long friggin time. I have a lot of time ahead of me.
So that's all for now, folks!
Oh and daycare was all right today and work was good too. I cut back my time for this week and am feeling better.
me, 30 WH, 29 D born June 2010 M: July 2001 Bomb/S: 1/14/10 Done with it all.
