Oh...and the boy toy thing....good move to drop it. You will know when you are ready. Your ready....when you really accept that no one and i mean no one...can validate or invalidate what you feel and who you are.
God Bless, Eric
"The difficulties of Life are intended to make us BETTER,not bitter". "Fear is a prison, where you are the jailer. FREE YOURSELF!" "Life is usually all about how you handle Plan B." - Jack3Beans