Yeah the male hormones are ragging dude but not because of what YOUR think (hey did I just post that )
Thank B....Grit has been really on my butt lately. Can you send him to his room?
PEI - were you referring to me as a dwarf? All 5'2" of you? Seriously?
"The difficulties of Life are intended to make us BETTER,not bitter". "Fear is a prison, where you are the jailer. FREE YOURSELF!" "Life is usually all about how you handle Plan B." - Jack3Beans
Today is my birthday. I am now 41 years old (no old man jokes please )
I had an expectation today, that my wife would not even acknowledge my birthday - I can say expectation met. I had an expectation today, that my W would not have even reminded the children about my birthday - expectation met.
So...I felt it today...It hurt...then I picked myself up and let it go...
SO I went out to run some errands today..picked up my prescriptions (and NO Grit it was not the little blue pill - LOL), dropped some mail off, went and returned some movies, went food shopping and picked up Chinese food for the kids. My oldest son left early to hang out at his girlfriends house. None of the kids said anything to me today about my birthday and I decided not to mention it. I did not want them to feel bad that they may have forgotten.
Many of you on these boards understand the challenges I have had with my oldest son. He is and always has been very close to his mom. I have never interfered in that R. Does it hurt that he is not close to me? Yes. Most of the time, I feel like nothing more than a wallet and/or chauffeur to him.
So...I get home from running errands. Pretty happy actually. I was spending my birthday with the people who mean the most to me - my kids (at least two of them). Then a funny thing happened....a thing that showed me that ALL things happen when they are suppose to happen.
My middle son and daughter gave me a birthday card that my D9 made. It says....
Happy Birthday Dad and Eric does not know it was your birthday and he is just so uuuhhhh. Me and Aaron love you. Love Aaron and Victoria
The card made me smile. It touched my heart. I looked up and said that there is a god. Then....i received a text from my oldest son...when I noticed it was from him, my first thought was that he must want me to pick him up....but once again...I jumped the gun.
The text said.... Happy birthday dad. I know I can be an as*hole to u sometime but its not that i dont love your or anything. I love you with all my heart and I hope you always know that. U will always be my dad and im so lucky that you will be. I love you dad.
I went outside to cry. Tears of joy...tears of knowing that standing...knowing that everything that i have done for him he sees. He may not say it but he sees it. Then i cried some more.
As I thought about his text something dawned on me....
I love him UNCONDITIONALLY. No matter what he does, no matter how much of an a** he can be - I still love him. He will make his choices in his life. Do go in school or not. Behave or not. Love me back or not. Either way...I will always love him. Why> Because I choose to.
Now...if we can only apply this to our spouses. If we can only love them unconditionally. We say it but do we live it?
Loving unconditionally does not mean that you do not get angry. It does not mean that you are not "done" with your M. It does not mean that you should be a doormat...what it means...is just how I feel about my son!
My challenge to anyone that reads this is this...can you say that about your spouse. Don't answer me...answer yourself!
Okay..gotta go.....my birthday gift to myself, is a gift to my son - I just downloaded new "maps" for the call of duty modern warfare game. My son is very happy..and so am I -
Happy birthday to me...
God Bless, Eric
"The difficulties of Life are intended to make us BETTER,not bitter". "Fear is a prison, where you are the jailer. FREE YOURSELF!" "Life is usually all about how you handle Plan B." - Jack3Beans
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