Here's a story...of a very sad lady

[Dagny-2]

This is why I come here first before I do anything stupid or spin too far out of control.

Yes, Free-will. It is his to choose, my replaying all the happy times in my head isn't going to change anything, I must look forward and remember, I have free-will, too. I can choose. I'm choosing to stay here and DB my ass-off, not sit and mope.

I don't want him if he doesn't want me. What I want is him to want me, but it isn't going to happen.

He called to say he is coming over for stuff, to make sure I have the boys out of the house. I so want to spy and see who is coming to help him, he can't carry a couch on his own. Is he bringing her? But sneaking around with a child in tow would be a really stupid move on my part, so we will go out to eat and get some groceries.

Every time I talk to him a little bit of me dies. I think it is his overwhelming rejection of me and of the kids. We had talked about splitting this weekend, but now he has "committments". I think we need a firm plan of when he takes the kids and where. I was a bit against him having the boys sleep at his place, as it would break up their routine, but maybe they need that time with him. A few extra minutes in the morning to commute to school would be okay.

Dagny