Sorry you find yourself here. You have already recieved some good advice and a very good question so I have nothing to add other than..."hello".
Stay strong...and remember....this is REALLY ABOUT YOU...not him.
You'll know what I mean by that if you take the focus off of your M and put it where it belongs, which is on YOU.
God Bless Eric
"The difficulties of Life are intended to make us BETTER,not bitter". "Fear is a prison, where you are the jailer. FREE YOURSELF!" "Life is usually all about how you handle Plan B." - Jack3Beans