Maybe I am all wet here, and I didn't mean to offend you future, but there seems to me to be a constant repeat pattern here. You have been here for so long, yet you keep taking about going to her with one last try. That is pursuing. Reread the advice others have given you. Someone said "If you continue to do this you will be here for ANOTHER year." Maybe it was Robx, I don't remember. The point is that YOU have to stop trying.
Hi DanF - No offense taken at all. I come here to get advice, and I appreciate all of it. Amazing when I think of how long I have been on here. On the one hand, it's sort of depressing, but I have continued to grow and learn, so I don't really have that much problem with it.
Realize, I put all my thoughts here on this board, but very little of it is ever expressed to W. For the last year, SHE has been the one initiating all R talks. She pursued me last winter. She was the one last spring who came at me and kissed me. She was the one texting me at night inviting me over. My big mistake was not playing harder to get. I did a little, and it worked, but I gave in way too easily, giving up my power. I needed to require her to show me unequivicably that she completely removed OM from her life BEFORE I gave in. Once she thought she had me, she again started thinking she could have her cake and eat it too.
I think she's VERY surprised I'm not going to Disney. She gave me an open ivitation. She tried several angles to get me to go, without success. I appreciate that she didn't try to use sheer deceit. I have to admit, she is TRYING to be honest.
Like I said, I'm actually doing very little in terms of pursuing her, but the fact that I have all these thoughts demonstrates how involved I still am, which is what you're picking up on. I need to get back to where I'm hardly even thinking about her, or my situation.
