You can't have everything, where would you put it?

[ClingingToHope]

Put more stuff in my calendar last night. Amazingly busy for the next 3 months -- between work (jobs 1, 2 and 3), church classes, and other social stuff. This week I'll get stuff from the girls on their activities. D11's band practice is going to be tricky.

In any case, there isn't going to be much time to dwell on things. It looks like -- in terms of weekends, right now I have two slow times. Mid October to end of November. There's no running races and no basketball games. So my non-kid weekends are free.

And mid June to end of July.

Otherwise I'm either off working a running race or doing football or basketball games.

Lots of stuff. I know I tend to overdo it, but the busier I am the less time to dwell and less time to spend.

Today is the first full day of school. I leave in about 40 minutes to meet the girls off the bus. Tonight is my night so the daycare lady stays there until I'm done working. BUT I won a 60 minute facial last week and ... I don't need it ... so D11 is going to use it from 5 p.m. to 6 p.m. I forgot to figure out how she's getting there.

Thursdays and Fridays are going to be crazy. Fridays I have football games I will have to be done with EVERYTHING by 2:20 p.m. because I won't be coming back. So that means really getting everything finished Thursday night.

Basically, I've scheduled myself to the point I can't really help STBXW much on her nights. She'll have to deal with it. I know I'll get asked and she'll get angry when I say no. I do have to try to accomodate her sometimes. Either this summer or the summer after I'll have to switch the summer weekends so I can work all of my races. I can't just always say no.

Time really is our only friend. A year ago I was staying at work until 9, 10 every night because I didn't really have anything going on. Now ... almost too much.

Before you swing the 2x4s. I'm $25k in credit card debt. I expect the settlement will wipe out about $6k. Still, that's $19k left and I'm going to pay that off. The only way to do it is to work and work and work.

Things happen for a reason and perhaps part of the reason I haven't found someone is I really can't afford another person in my life right now.

Hope everyone else is enjoying the back-to-school times.