Thanks, Pigskin. It's always good to hear from you.
I have been supportive and offering help, whatever it might be, during this illness with her dad. I ask how he is, if he's comfortable, if he's in a good mood, ready to come home, etc. I also ask how she is feeling. She should get her blood tests back today.
When I got home last night, she was outside. I said, hi, and so did she. I asked how she was feeling as I was walking up the porch steps. She started telling me so I walked back down the steps, got a little closer to her and looked her in the eye and listened. She explained what happened at the Dr. that day and what her thought and how she still felt really bad. I asked a few questions but mostly listened. We went in the house and the kids ran up to me as they always do. I talked to them about their day and played for a few minutes.
I had band practice and offered to stay home to watch the kids so she could lie down and rest. She said she would be fine, to go ahead and go. I left and had a great time, as always.
Got home @12:30 and she was in our bed. It was the first time since April, I think. Our youngest son was there, too. IDK if he went to bed with her or came in later. I laid down and went to sleep. I know it doesn't mean anything and I know she didn't feel good, but thought it worth mentioning.
Just got a txt from BIL that said FIL should get out of hospital sometime this evening. That is great news.
Tonight she's supposed to work at the bar. Unless she calls in sick. So I will have homework and showers and have to find time to cut the grass. We got some rain the last couple of days and it is starting to look like a jungle. I have about 4acres to cut so I don't think I'll get everything done tonight.
It feels like I am finally getting the hang of letting go. I have to make sure to make my actions continue to match my feeling. Or make my actions override my feeling. I'm sure they will change again. It hasn't been a perfect, happy house, but the last couple of weeks have at least been civil. I still wonder if it's my attitude or her getting caught in lies or a combination of both. Whatever it is, I must keep it going.
