I don't want to be D. I really don't. It's just so painful right now to realize the motions in place moving towards that realization of being in a M that ends in D. That's just so terrible! I'm a good man that's just made a lot of mistakes! I'm a loving person to my W and she is a loving person to me. This is just all so unbearable right now.
I don't even know how to act anymore.
John, remember the part in "N.U.Ts" that talks about getting rid of the little boy? Re-read that part.
When I was diagnosed with rectal cancer, I was furious. I didn't want chemo. I didn't want radiation treatment. I didn't want a colostomy; farting has always been one of my favorite activities. I didn't want to have ED for a year while I recovered.
But that's what God handed me. I didn't deal well with it. Having gone through the last 2 months, it'd be a piece of cake if I had to go through all of that medical stuff again.
You know how to act. Get rid of the little boy. Accept where you are, move to where you want to be.
I didn't want to have ED for a year while I recovered.
