I have decided to just give up on this situation and not even consider my M in any actions I take from now on in. I feel like i have been swimming upstream for the last 4 months and never once got any indication that this M was salvageable.
It is a very sad day for me but I need to accept that my W no longer wants to be here and what benefit is there for anyone in her staying if that is her mindset.
I will never really understand what happened but it is what it is and all the "hoping" on my side is not going to change anything.
Thank you Puppy, Soleil, Coach for all your very wise advice. I just need to take care of my S and myself and rebuild.
yesterday she told me marriage means nothing to her and they were just words. Just wish she told me that before she said them.
Probably wont post here again but good luck to everyone on turning things around. It is an honorable thing