To Tell or Not to Tell

[LRT Land]

Miscarriage hasn't started but I can tell it's over - just feels different, and as I mentioned it never felt right. What I didn't share with H because he didn't value one new child is that the doctor told me this would have been twins based on the hormone levels and the huge drop in the labs. While I am relieved to not have to make the decision, I am mourning the loss.

These are some of the things I'd like to say to H which I can't so I'll say them here, and thank you all for sticking with me:

- grow up.
- do you ever think of anyone besides yourself?
- not having sx for 5 days doesn't give you the right to act like an a##hole
- how can you possibly blame me for the pg when it's common knowledge it takes a sperm and an egg?
- why can't you own your issues and get help?

This morning, he was flipping back and forth between Jekyll and Hyde. This means he's coming out of the snit. I didn't take the bait. And when he got to a point where he started raising his voice and saying very nasty things I calmly said "i'm not going to let you yell at me" and walked away.

The past is history, the future is uncertain, but today is a gift. Cherish each moment and don't let ANYONE rain on your parade.