Scared as Hell

[desperate1992]

I have a job, but not a good enough job that I could support myself because of my lack of skills. It's funny because my H has been pushing for me to get a job with benefits for a long time. I should have seen the writing on the wall long ago.

It's hard not to sulk and be despressed. I wish I could just put on that happy face but it's just so raw and devestating.

I'm so confused..one minute he tells me he doesnt want me and the next he is kissing me goodnight. I must be a show for the kids. I'm not sure the kids have a clue that we havent been getting along.