So let me pass it on in Danish...Jeg elsker dig!! I think it is incredible that the phrase most people learn or remember from another language is I love you. Maybe there really is hope for man afterall.
Glad you are sounding good.
Hugs, kat
Me-53(and learning!) S24, S21, D18, D17 Just keep swimming, Just keep swimming. Dory
Congrats on the computer & finding your way around. Amazing what we can learn if we're backed up against a wall. I've been doing the same, although, six months later...my new computer sits next to my old.
Way to appreciate & enjoy those that might have gone by the wayside, as is probably the case most of the time. It appears that they value the relationship they have with you, too!
Hey Gyps...it's nice that you ex in law family (or something like that) are still "friendly" with you. The fact that they are not happy with your ex's decison must offer some form of comfort. At the end of the day it really does not change anything with what happened and your today. Why just yesterday, I get home in a great mood after shooting 35 on the back nine to find a voicemail from the ex MIL!!!! "I was thinking about you becasue i am going to Cuba and was wondering if you wanted any cigars".....WOW......ahhhhh......noooooooo thanks. Not even sure I will call her back. So, good for you for having a nice relationship with inlaws and good for you for not piling on.
Rehearsing for the show is like nothing I've imagined. As the director told me tonight, new actors have no control over their bodies. And it's true. I can't figure out how to turn.. I keep walking backwards! I stutter, stammer, have long pauses. Expression comes out through my body, rather than facial features and voice. My voice needs to project and have energy.
I have to be in control of the marionette, the character I'm portraying. The audience may know me as Miss Preen, but it's Kathleen who's in charge. And learning to respond to the well rehearsed lines and movements as if it's the first time... every time. Expressing from my core.
I listen without saying a word. He's the director. I'm a sponge. And yet, it's dawning on me that even with these tiny baby steps, I am an actor on this stage. Wow.. it's something new. Most activities or hobbies I pick up are usually somewhat solitary.. like making jewelry, handmade rugs, drawing, writing.
The director made a reference to the Wizard of Oz when Dorothy and her companions went in to see the great and powerful Oz.. booming voice, special effects and Toto pulled the curtain aside exposing the man working the controls. On stage I'm the 'man behind the curtain', creating the persona for others to see.
Driving home I thought of the implications, applications in life. That many times with something new I whirl and twirl (at times getting lost). Yet things don't need to be chaotic because I feel out of control. Little Ms. Oz can pull in the energy containing it (versus the paralyzing anxiety) and direct it. What works for me rather than which way is the wind blowing me.
I've spent the last two years learning about boundaries.. previously something I never understood nor implemented.. and it's been wonderful. Now I'm experiencing what building a firm foundation is all about. It's been like walking around a familiar area, but never knowing there was a trail or a way out. I'm psyched.
Oh yeah... in addition to my sylvan walks, my friend and I are going to the gym on iffy days. Goodness gracious does the blood flow and sweat pour. I love it. And now I find I notice men something I never did while married. Interesting.. very interesting.
I am having sooooooooo much fun working on the play.
Granted two weeks ago, I felt like a punching bag and that the director was probably doubting his choice in picking me. I have a good attitude. After all.. I know NOTHING about acting or being in plays and have been busy learning all the mechanics of what it takes for a good show. Do you know we have to be aware of not even hesitating a second on lines so the show doesn't drag out?
My character is a timid terrified nurse who is constantly bullied by a huge celebrity who because of an injury outside of the dinner host's house takes it over and rules the roost. His favorite verbal punching bag is me. I'm the comic relief.
My marriage gradually eroded to me always being on edge with my former spouse and jumpy.. that I was always in the wrong. Well.. I have this exit monologue where I tell the bullying lead exactly what I think of him. It's like I'm an emotional volcano that gets to blow.
And that is something I never was. I'd swallow emotions and quake. So it's GREAT to get it out. I have no hesitation at going for it.
Sooooooo.. as far a GAL goes, being in a play was something I always wanted to do but was too afraid. Sheebam.. I auditioned for a year, got the part.. and I'm so thrilled to be doing something I never thought possible ever in my life, overjoyed at a completely new experience.
