Donna's new outlook, finding herself #38

[Reincarnated]

OK, it is 2:50 am, and I am sitting on my computer again - so much for going to bed at 10 for a good night's sleep! I woke up at 1, WIDE awake!

I called the animal control officer about seeing if he could get a rush on the test, and he said he already did (it's a little unnerving how careful everyone is being about this!!). My daughter wouldn't share my lemonade today when we went out, and was reluctant to kiss me goodnight - don't know if she is overreacting, or just being smart!

Kerry - I can't pick which recipe:

Bar-B-Q'd Raccoon

BBQ Raccoon Sandwiches

Coon Meal In A Bag (ACK!!)

Coon Stew

Deep Fried Raccoon

Grilled Raccoon

Roast Raccoon In Red Wine

Roast Raccoon with Stuffing

Roasted Raccoon and Yams

um.........NOT!



When I rolled over and found myself so awake, my thoughts started to drift to what would happen to my kids if something were to happen to me....

Anyone else really look at this?

I have life insurance - x and I both carry it, as per the D settlement. It would all go in trust for my kids. My house, too.
But man, there is so much more I have to do in raising them...

They would go to live with x and his gf full-time. They would probably loose touch with my family and friends. Not sure what would happen with their R with their grandparents.
Really a pretty terrible thing to think about. I had visions of writing letters to the kids/making video tapes of any wisdom I hoped to impart, an effort to still be there for them...
Hence, me getting my ass out of bed and coming here to dump and distract.


I did a lot of running around with the kids today. At one store, the gf was coming out as we were going in. Her D said hi to the kids, my D said hi quietly back as we kept walking. My S ignored her. I had no outward reaction, but it is hard, since I've known her kids since they were born and hate to not recognize them when they are with their mother - we just went directly inside. I was a step behind my kids, and hopefully the little one didn't notice me too much. Blech.
Small blemish to an otherwise great day with the kids.