My walk away wife story

[40andsadintexas]

Journaling
I know that everyone thinks there sich is the worst but after reading many posts it looks like most people are trying to save a marriage with a human being. Most people it seems at least try a little to save the marriage before the big D. No not us my wife files without even giving me a heads up. I told her from the day we were married that I would take ½ of the blame for anything that happens in our marriage. I still feel like that up until I found out about OM2 then OM3, I wanted to save our marriage more than anything else in the world now I don’t think I could ever be with her again, its like our kids, our family, our marriage did not have zero meaning to her, some times I guess these things just cant be fixed I guess there was to much damage done before I even knew there was a problem. From the beginning of our marriage my wife had always had ups and downs they ran in cycles about 2 months or so each. This last time she started pulling away I just thought it was a start of her down cycle. She had been on long up cycle that started back in November she started hunting with me this year she wanted to go every weekend we took all the kids spent lots of time together and I thought we were closer than we had ever been. When the down cycle started in April I did the normal thing and gave her space little did I know that with in six weeks she would file for the big d. From what I can tell she is having the high of her life right now when she crashes this time it should be a huge crash. Both of her sisters have been diagnosed as bipolar the crazy one has tried to commit suicide two or three times. I always thought my wife might be a little bipolar but there is no way she would ever seek help or take medication and for the most part I think that some people use mental problems as a crutch or excuse for there bad behavior. I don’t know why My wife started acting the way she did, I don’t think it has anything to do with being bipolar, I guess in her mind I was so bad she thought she had to run from me as fast as she could to a waiting crowd of scummy guy’s who have no problem getting what they want from a wife and mother