Journaling a little.

Just before leaving work today I texted her if she wanted to go out to dinner tonight at the place we haven't been for a long time and she really likes it there. I thought that since every time we go it has either been her initiation or my "statement" that it is where I was going with or without her. I figured to throw in a nice invitation for a change.

She responded "No, thanks, just going out myself tonight." This somewhat incomplete sentence is different than any other time. It's usually "I'll be late" or "I'm going out with the client" or "I'll be at moms".

I replied "Do I need to run home?" because I never know when she actually leaves the house and therefore need to estimate my time for the dogs. She replied "Please, I am just finishing a meeting".

Nothing here really to read into. She has been balancing our time together with her other "fun" pretty fairly lately.

However there is another thing that bothers me today.

I learned from one of my sources that she has organized a party next friday night at her vacation house and invited some coworkers and "friends" from the "Pit of Deception" (the bar she disappears in). There is that one guy that I have kept an eye on for possible EA. I learned that some people have been asked to stay over but I don't know exactly who.

That I have a problem with. I am suppose to drop off 2 dogs in the middle of the week (T or W) and was invited to stay overnight. I don't like this party idea for several reasons but primarily I don't want to have my dogs in the middle of the party where they can easily be neglected or even get loose in a strange and isolated environment. And if there is anything sinister going on I want my "kids" not to be there.

I don't know what to do about that. If she tells me I could express my concerns but if not then what? If I back off from my promise to drive up I need to explain why and the other 2 pups will still be there.

I will try to make her tell me her detailed plans of who is staying there and when.