Saw IC today. Wish I wasn't struggling so much right now! I haven't been able to stop thinking about H. Trying to figure out what went wrong. All this does is make me crazy - then I feel horrible about myself - which then makes me validate all of his negative statements about me!!! This is vicious! I have to develop some better strategies or tools to get control over these thoughts! It's exhausting and distracting and I can't afford either one of those states in my life right now.
Today's struggle...coming to terms with the difference between denial and hopefulness. Am I in denial if I want to have any sense of hopefulness - even the smallest sense?
M-48/XH-48 M=25/T=28 years Ds-24,22/S-18 D - 3/11 A Day at a Time
