Standing tall for myself--forever & ever, amen.

[beingreal]

Listen, did you really expect him to say he would help?

Lol... yeah, actually I did. Pretty dumb, huh?

This isn't piddly ass little "do as I say" crap... this is the welfare of his children. I honestly thought that would mean something to him. I thought he was a better man than this. This is the part that just floors me.

Shows you how much I know.

Correction, I know it... I just didn't bother to put that knowledge into play today. I don't know why I'm still surprised by his actions. Nothing should surprise me by this point, but it does.

One day he doesn't want it to be final because he wants the added grants for school. The next day he's telling me that finalizing it is the only way I'm going to get a dime from him. He has no idea wtf he's talking about right now... I need to not listen.


I have to rely on myself, Cat. You're right. I have too much going on. Not surprisingly, he hasn't even asked me about it. he has not a clue. He *thinks* he knows, but he has never asked. And I have never volunteered any information because I just don't want to deal with him. Someone said it last night... the only thing I can expect from him is pain.

"Pain is inevitable. Suffering is optional."

Don't ask me where I read that today... prolly here somewhere.

I don't have an exact plan of action yet, Cat. I just know that I have a couple of different options right now. None of which involve turning to him. I do, however, find it ironic that *I'm* debating getting another job on top of everything I have to do now while H can't find the time or energy to find the first one.

Eric... thanks. I've been acting like a single parent for son long... it should be second nature. I haven't had a husband, in the truest sense of the word, in a couple of years.

You're right, though. It's not forever. Sky is the limit as far as my future goes.

Nana & Poppa are taking us out to eat for the kids' first day back to school.

Thank God for Nana & Poppa.
And my friends.
And the people who can see the truth from where they stand & don't need me to tell them.
And keep us in their prayers.

Thank God for all of you.