Good question, Gardener. The truth is that I'm ecstatic that Mr. A is giving me attention and largely I just want to jump right back into things with him. But he has hurt me so badly over the past year and a half that another part of me is being very, very cautious. So I'm having an internal battle. There isn't one clear course of action for me right now.
And I think that's why I'm behaving in such a confused/confusing way.
I just came from an office wedding shower (sigh) and I'm off to another meeting in a few minutes. I'll have to think about what to do this evening.
