I WISH my H was gone from the home right now--so I could just NOT HEAR HIS PHONE GO OFF!! And then he goes outside to talk and it SUCKS!!!
yeah. you have to try and not let the paranoia get to you. look at me as an example. forrest can drop my sitch any moment now .. it drags you into that vortex like a toilet bowl and to crawl out takes so much work. don't go there.
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You need to stop your Intel--please--it is hurting you. I don't know how to look up my H's phone log and I'm SO GLAD I don't know how. It doesn't help and puts you like this--not good.
i have to say .. it came to a point where checking my intel resources made my heart race with anxiety. and i had to stop it for that reason. i can't live with that kind of constant fear. it makes me not want to check and so i've weened myself off.
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And, you know what?lol. I woke up last night in the middle of the night THINKING OF YOU.lol and what you said about "being each other's first" and you have been married 9 years and it hit me like a bolt in the MIDDLE OF THE NIGHT.
you're making me feel bad now. i don't want you to have sleepless nights over my sitch. you have enough on your plate already.
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Yeah, you don't have to answer on this public forum but this guy is NOT a sleep-around kind of guy. AT ALL!! And his mom's germaphobia thing? Yeah, the chances of him doing that are beyond none. No WAY.
he admits he has a lot of issues with sleeping around. germs and diseases being one of them. he never was the type and it was one of the things i admired about him. we were similar that way. but do people change? is that something that could change?
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Anyway, there may be something coming. Go play squash or do whatever you do to calm yourself when there is something bad about to happen. Get yourself in a happy place anyway--you have to take care of you and part of your work here is to figure out WHAT makes you get to your happy place the quickest.
i have been trying. one of the things i really have to try and do is get some sleep. i lose sleep or i sleep too late. it's not good for me.
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Take care sweetie, I'm here if you need to talk.
thanks so much lauraoh. you have been really good to me .. seeing me through my ups and downs.
we should get back to your sitch .. my thread is still alive and kicking .. no need to hijack here.
