We had a R talk today. She opened the games and it just started by her telling me that she is really being hurt financially by all of this and I responded that this is one of the costs of divorce and that both our standard of living are going to suffer. She said i would probably be happy she was not going to have an easy time and I just stated that I hoped she would find what she was looking for no matter what way this turns out. I wished her no malice.
This then turned into a conversation about what is happening and AGAIN the only reason given was that she could not get along with my S(11). I asked was that the only reason and she said there was some other small stuff but that was the main reason.
I AGAIN stated that that is fixable and we should just try and figure it out. Probably shouldn't have said that "this is not enough of a reason to me to break up a marriage". but she said she had no interest and was done. She brought up some conversation we had about it two years ago ( I could not remember it at all )
I asked her did she have any doubts about the path she was on and she said NO.
All the time she was talking her eyes told a bigger story than her words. they are very expressive normally and I didn't see any hope in them.
She said she just didn't have the same feelings towards me and she knew she would never get them back. That was just the way she was.
Funny thing was in the middle of all this i looked down and she was wearing her engagement ring. She hasn't worn it since she dropped the bomb 4 months ago. I commented on it and she just brushed the comment aside. She joked it would keep the Dogs in work off till we got this finalized.
I wish we never had the conversation and shouldn't have jinxed myself by my last post. Right now i don't see any hope either.
Her last words were "I know this is not what you want but it would take the two of us to fix it and I don't want to try"
