You are very welcome, however no thanks are needed.
Originally Posted By: LSG
I will say that I cherish every moment of everyday since my sitch began
Even I can't say this...
Some days have been too dark to even fathom, however what I cherish is the fact that no matter how far I have fallen, I have never fallen so far that He couldn't lift me out again.
Originally Posted By: LSG
I will keep praying an look to God to the what I am unable to
Maybe tweak this a bit, since He can do all, there is nothing He can't do...
Leave all of it in His hands, move forward to better yourself, the lives of your children and loved ones around you -
Whatever is meant to be, will be and nothing you do will change that.
(((Hugs)))
May All Who Seek To Take My Life Be Put To Shame And Confusion; May All Who Desire My Ruin Be Turned Back In Disgrace. ~Psalm 40:14~
W is on the phone with her parents. She only does this when there is something big, or she is stressed out.
Well, she did finally give me a check today, and she has been making sure that there is food in the house. It is about time. She did give me some rice for dinner. I guess it is better than nothing I suppose. I felt it was a slap in the face.
I did not eat it or say anything. I gave it to my S.
I had fun with the kids as usual. Laundry is done today. I am amazed she is doing anything. She even asked me to start dinner tomorrow. I will, but I am going to eat too.
I took the kids to the doggie park, and I went to the regular park for S today. He was happy.
I helped my bother with his job search today too. He is very greatful for the help. My parents do not have the money for the internet, so I help him when he needs it.
S said W is mean today. D thought W was going to give me something besides rice. She is becoming more and more surprised by w.
I just keep doing what I can to make it through each moment. Today was not that bad of a day for me I guess.
I may have an interview this week, so wish me luck. I am so excited. I have to get this one for me. It is so scary because I go in prepared, ready, and confident to the interviews. The recruiter is going to remove my MBA from resume. I hope it helps me some. I want to be at this company, and I will not leave once I am there.
I vowed to never be without a job once I have one. I will strive to be independent no matter what. I have experienced too much this year to let anyone decide my future. I have gained this perspective, and I will never change it for as long I live.
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She even asked me to start dinner tomorrow. I will, but I am going to eat too.
You're damn right!
Yes, make sure your kids are fed, as you have been, but don't let her pull this with you.
LSG, man, I feel for you. You have come so far and it really makes me feel bad for whining so much about my sitch. You are full of strength that you don't even realize. When you get a job, it will fill that void of feeling like a leech. (Your words-not that I, or anyone else, thinks you are) You are to be admired.
I think it is time to man up here...I say this out of respect, your W is acting vile and doing it in front of your children.
She is holding all the cards...
She has all the money, dishes out food to you as if you are a child, gives you quarters to do laundry, witholds food from you etc...
There comes a point when those wedding vows are not as important anymore. This would be that point. It’s time for you to move forward and for her to move out.
Why should you have to suffer in your relationship with a woman who clearly doesn’t want to be married any longer and hurts you every chance she gets?
It is time to take a firmer approach at this because the doormat approach isn't working.
(((Hugs)))
May All Who Seek To Take My Life Be Put To Shame And Confusion; May All Who Desire My Ruin Be Turned Back In Disgrace. ~Psalm 40:14~
You where done before, you are done now. Your wife has built up a comfort level in the nastiness she is dishing to you. Perhaps what was inside of her before when she loved you and your marriage is no longer there.
The best thing I did in my situation was move on to the next. It really opened up my eyes in that it is a wide world, and the situation my wife defined for me should not recieve, all, most or even hardly any of my attention.
Thats it. Have a good day, and get back on the positive track you where on.
Stop weathering the storm your wife dish and continue living the rest of your life.
You where done before, you are done now. Your wife has built up a comfort level in the nastiness she is dishing to you. Perhaps what was inside of her before when she loved you and your marriage is no longer there.
The best thing I did in my situation was move on to the next. It really opened up my eyes in that it is a wide world, and the situation my wife defined for me should not recieve, all, most or even hardly any of my attention.
Thats it. Have a good day, and get back on the positive track you where on.
Stop weathering the storm your wife dish and continue living the rest of your life.
Never feel bad for the difficult times you are experiencing in your life. I feel so much for you and everyone her. It makes me feel that I don't have it as bad as I sometimes feel.
I hope you are right that I have more strength than I know. I hope so. The job would take so much pressure off me financially.
Please don't show me any admiration. I allowed myself to be in this position. It is up to me to find a way out.
I just found out that W put in an order for a change of address. I could not find any other information than that. She is going to make her move soon. I have about 30 days before this will happen at the most. She has not given a notice, so I have to use everyday to find a place for me and the kids. I need that job ASAP.
I called a contact at Dr. Phil to see if I can gain exposure, and the producer said she will see what she can do. I do not expect too much right now. I have to try everything to gain an equal footing with W.
Thank you for your blessings to me.
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You are so right that she is holding all the cards. I have been trying to buy myself some time for fighting for my kids. If I have to suffer some to do that so be it. I will be the doormat to try to even out the situation in my favor. It is not that I am afraid of her. It is my situation that I need time to change. The more time I have the better chances I have for my life to be the way I want with the kids and job. I live this way for them. I will not be taken out of their life. There are options that will come to me when the time is right. I have to be there for my S and D.
It is my only thoughts from the time I wake up until the time I go to sleep.
I hope this explains why I must continue to do the things I am.
I do not want my M any longer, and I have not for some time. W is not the person I want to be with anymore.
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