OK. I understand that I cannot ask her for her approval for my decisions but there has been a long silence over our R.
She wanted me to tell her what I think about the situation. Her behavior coupled with her fear ofer her health has changes some of the dynamic. I want to tell her that I have accepted the fact that I may have to move out, but I don't want to slam the door on my way out.
I want to let her know that I have recognized that the last time seven years ago we went through a similar phase and I know now that I did not handle things well after getting a chance from her. It's important because she brought it up recently.
I also want to tell her that I will be supportive of her health issues. Sometimes people with sickness withdraw themselves from loved ones. I don't want her to think that I've decided to run and have no regard of that.
And finally I'd like to find a way to throw out the re-inventing our R. I have never asked her to consider that, even when I was doing the initial begging and crying.
What if she is open to that now? What if she is looking for some strength from me that does not include separation?
How do I put it all together in a strong honest and convinceable way? I have to end this stalemate.
