Hey D4ML, don't forget to go to my thread and post--you are getting good at this, and I love when you add your insight!
You are so funny, girl. You sound like 2 different people. There is the girl that posts to me, and there is the one here.
Here's some homework for you--imagine what life will be like when you reconcile. Go to the best-case scenario and start to think it through in your mind. See the old issues but now see them with your new eyeballs. When you think of something negative, well, let me back up--put a rubber band on your wrist first--then when you think of something negative, snap yourself REALLY HARD.
It doesn't matter if you win your H back in the end or not--your thinking is ridiculously negative--I mean--my 17 year old neighbor thinks like this --not a grown adult woman!!
I need to do the ole rubber band trick myself--helps with the "stinkin thinkin" we do to ourselves.
Smile, help someone, be positive, and get back to that person that was here a couple of weeks ago--the compassionate, confident one.
You knw what I envision one day? Hugging my M-in-law and F-in-law and laughing and crying and telling them how much I love them and THANK YOU for being the people that gave me my H. He has taught me SO MUCH about this world and life and the people out there that are so amazing. The hope and wonder that is this world.
What can they have done that I won't forgive them for for teaching me THE MOST IMPORTANT THINGS ABOUT LIFE!!!?