IMO - I hate to say it but she will probably leave. It will hurt like hell. As hard as it will be YOU must let her go. If she leaves you will be in shock for some period of time. Your anger will come raging forward - accept the anger - feel it. Find a way to let it out.
If she does move out she is taking a step for her, one that does not include you and right now I am sorry to say that she can't include you.
She is in a place of confusion right now, her actions are screaming this.
Often we want to jump in and confess our love for them. They cannot see it right now. Confess our love....think about that for a second. Do you only love when YOU get what YOU want? Do you only love when certain conditions are met. Can you love someone who does not appear to love you right now?
How long and how often did she have to put up with your issues? How long did she love you when you did not deserve it?
Bobby - you can be really pissed off at someone and still love them. You can be really hurt by someone and still love them. You can want to strangle someone and still love them. Your post show how much you love her....your post show how much you want your M.
If you love something sometime you need to let it go. If you truly love someone you MUST give them the space they need to grow, to make mistakes, to fall, to laugh, to live.
You see Bobby...she is trying to live her life right now- What are you going to do? Remain stuck in a pit of despair, remain stuck in a pit of anger, remain stuck in your own self pity?
This is really your time Bobby. Time for you to find yourself. Time for you to learn how to smile again. Time for you to find some joy in your life. Time for Bobby.
Tactics will not work...little innuendo will not work....trying to "show her" you changed will not work. The only thing Bobby that will work is being YOU. Learning to be who you really are as a person as an individual. Learning to love unconditionally. Learning to be at peace. Learning to let go. Learning to give up control. Learning that life changes, people change, everything changes with one constant - YOU and the core of WHO YOU are. That Bobby will not change...and so who is the core of Bobby?
You can do this man....it is not easy. Nothing in life really is.
God Bless, Eric
"The difficulties of Life are intended to make us BETTER,not bitter". "Fear is a prison, where you are the jailer. FREE YOURSELF!" "Life is usually all about how you handle Plan B." - Jack3Beans
