Here's a story...of a very sad lady

[Dagny-2]

I'll need to save the dress to the nines technique for a latter day, didn't do so well last night. The reality of sitting in a L office, hit me hard. I was a pile of mush last night. H came over, but the kids had made plans for their godfather to take them to the creek and didn't stick around long. H grabbed some more clothes and stuff and I, like the dork that I am, just sat and cried. I couldn't help it. At least I didn't ask him questions, just sat like a dope and cried. Duh, don't I know better?

Then later S11 was upset when he got home and H wasn't here, he tried to call H, but H wouldn't answer. S11 was still upset at bedtime and called H, H was all perky and really didn't allow S11 to feel sad, so they hung up and S11 cried himself to sleep. It just breaks my heart.

S13 and I later talked about the stages of feelings we will be going through, he came up with a new one, the jumbled phase, where there are so many feelings at the same time that contradict each other, but you still feel them. He said he is mad at dad and he isn't mad at dad. I like the term, sure feel jumbled.

On the L front, I may be heart-broken and still in pain, but I have 2 more L appointments this week, I picked three from a google search that have free consultations so I can scout out who I like. I will also do the same in Philly when I'm back in September, I will have the option to file in PA or TN, so I'll see which meets my needs better. Guess I'm not all mush.

Dagny