A new day ... or something equally cliche ....

[LanceSijan]

I ain't hugging Eric!

Whatever ... I know you're first in line ...

LMAO

[Truegritter]

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[dl443322]

Pei, you are ok in my book. Just sayin.

I am so sorry you had to have that talk with your children. It sucks all the way around.

And I get why you were mad. I do. You're human and he poked you where it still hurts. And I know you felt disrespected. But you know what, screw him. There, I said, it. How's that?
I dont give a rat's as@ about him. Let him blow in the wind.

Really. You be the wonderful Pei that you are. You talked to your kids. Now, get out of the way. Do not say anything against their daddy because in the future, it will come back to bite you.

And you do what you have to do for them. Dont expect a thing from him. And I do not say this to give him a pass. Uh uh, no freakin' way. I say this because you have to be the one who is there for them right now. You have to be the adult.

It matters how you handle yourself. It matters that they feel secure and loved with you. They are watching and it matters.

Now boys, if you all dont stop your nonsense of going back and forth on this thread, you will have a 5 ft Brooklyn chick so far in your face you wont know what hit you.

Got it?

And Pei, I know you can handle yourself. I know these boys look out for you and care about you. But geez, LOL!

[Truegritter]

Now boys, if you all dont stop your nonsense of going back and forth on this thread, you will have a 5 ft Brooklyn chick so far in your face you wont know what hit you.

But...But.... Puppy started it...

[dl443322]

Hey True, LOL!

Be a good boy, now. You're ok in my book, too.

[ericmsant2]

Did someone say group hug?

Count me in (okay visual of me jumping up and down in my pink tutu)

On a serious note...T - you know I got ya back girl. I am so proud of you. I really am. Your doing much better than you think.

Grace, class, dignity... your choice all sound all for YOU. This all YOU now. You decide the what, the where, the how, the who...It is all YOUR fu*king choice.

You know where I am at...you know my demons...you know my fears... I know you have some of the same. We can and We WILL beat these fears...we can and we WILL Face these fears - BECAUSE WE CHOOSE TO. WE CHOOSE light over darkness. We choose to look forward instead of looking backward. We choose to look INWARD instead of looking outward. Thing about that for a second.

Now is your time...now is your time to look inward and clean house. Now is your time to change the issues that you always wanted to change about yourself. Now is the time. The anger will help you get to that place. Get to that place of peace. Yeah..you will feel like shi* some days, you will be sad some days - when that happens come here and post it so that we can all take turn whipping your 5'2" a** back in in line. While drinking moosehead light of course.

T - do not be afraid of your choices. Do not be afraid of your boundaries. Do not second guess yourself. Never.

Here are the lyrics to Ememins - "I am not afraid song"

I'm not afraid to take a stand

Yep - you have proven that today!

Everybody come take my hand

We are all here for you. We are all in this together.

We'll walk this road together, through the storm
Whatever weather, cold or warm
Just let you know that, you're not alone

We are walking this journey. Each of...holding each other up. You should know that you are not alone.

Holla if you feel that you've been down the same road

Can I get a shout out from all the DB members - shout out guys...we have been down this road!

Yeah, It's been a ride...

AKA...the MLC rollercoaster!

I guess I had to go to that place to get to this one

Yes we all had to get to that place in order for us to grow. You PEI...grew today...grew by leaps and bounds!

Now some of you might still be in that place
If you're trying to get out, just follow me
I'll get you there

From me to you T.....I will be posting my stuff later tonight. I am an open book...learn from my mistakes and really look deep - look at those damn insecurities...look at those fears... Follow me, follow your DB friends...we will find that place...If we are all ready to do the work.

You can try and read my lyrics off of this paper before I lay 'em
But you won't take this thing out these words before I say 'em

Replace the word lyrics with "post"

Cause ain't no way I'm let you stop me from causing mayhem
When I say 'em or do something I do it, I don't give a damn
What you think, I'm doing this for me, so [censored] the world

No one can stop you PEI...only yourself...so stand up and say F-it..stand up for PEI...stand up for what PEI wants and F what everyone else says.

I'mma be what I set out to be, without a doubt undoubtedly

So T ....what are you gonna set out to be.. A women of compassion and strength or a women scorned with anger and resentment. I know the answer BUT it is YOUR choice.

And all those who look down on me I'm tearing down your balcony
No if ands or buts don't try to ask him why or how can he

No BUTS! NO if's! Anyone who does not understand that this is YOUR time...well F*ck em!

Until he bows out or he [censored]'s his bowels out of him
Whichever comes first, for better or worse
He's married to the game, like a [censored] you for christmas
His gift is a curse, forget the earth he's got the urge
To pull his dick from the dirt and [censored] the universe

What does this ^^^^^ say to you?

Okay quit playin' with the scissors and [censored], and cut the crap
I shouldn't have to rhyme these words in the rhythm for you to know it's a rap

Sooo how many time will we tell you not to touch the stove because it is hot. Stop playing with fire.

You said you was king, you lied through your teeth
For that fuc* your feelings, instead of getting crowned you're getting capped

FTR....since we never want to project out anger towards the spouse. I find this line quite therapeutic...Yep...lied through yoru teeth...and for that.....

{quote]And to the fans, I'll never let you down again, I'm back
I promise to never go back on that promise,[/quote]
Replace fans with DB friends....no do not let us OR YOURSELF down. Get back to working on T.

Relax, I ain't going back to that now

Stay the course...do not divert from YOUR changes and YOUR truth.

I'm tryna say is get back,
Cause I ain't playin' around
There's a game called circle and I don't know how
I'm way too up to back down

The game is not a game...I think of this as our DB lifestyle...so yeah...stop playing around and get back to work.

But I think I'm still tryna figure this crap out
Thought I had it mapped out but I guess I didn't

We can never figure out a spouse in MLC...yet we sometime still try. We sometimes still have expectations, which leads to...

This [censored] black cloud still follow's me around

leads to this...that cloud that I think of as those "[censored]*y feelings we get when we touch the stove..when we press..when we think we can still talk our way out of this.

But it's time to exercise these demons

My favorite line...Yes time to get rid of the crap...time to let go and face and deal with those demons. I know mine...do you know yours? Have you really looked at them. If you have then you will know my pain...you will also see your healing. Once the healing comes....well them...

These motherfuckers are doing jumping jacks now!

well then This ^^^^ happens.

And I just can't keep living this way
So starting today, I'm breaking out of this cage
I'm standing up, Imma face my demons
I'm manning up, Imma hold my ground
I've had enough, now I'm so fed up
Time to put my life back together right now

FTR...if some guys from Detroit can do this...well then I am sure a short Canadian chick can. Stand up T and never...never give up.

It was my decision to get clean, I did it for me
Admittedly I probably did it subliminally for you
So I could come back a brand new me,

Replace clean with Divorce Busting...Yeah we all claim to do it for us, then we come to realize that subconsciously we are doing it for them...and then...we begin to really change for US. Keep working T....you will come back brand new. A stronger T!

you helped see me through

We are here for you girl. We all are. Even Grit in his beaver T shirt.

And don't even realise what you did, believe me you
I been through the ringer, but they can do little to the middle finger
I think I got a tear in my eye, I feel like the king of
My world, haters can make like bees with no stingers, and drop dead
No more beef flingers, no more drama from now on, I promise
To focus soley on handling my responsibility's as a father
So I solemnly swear to always treat this roof like my daughters and raise it
You couldn't lift a single shingle on it
Cause the way I feel, I'm strong enough to go to the club
Or the corner pub and lift the whole liquor counter up
Cause I'm raising the bar, I shoot for the moon
But I'm too busy gazing at stars, I feel amazing and

Here are the rest of the lyrics...take from it what you will.

Maybe I am off my rocker T - Listen to song...and let that anger out. It is okay to be angry.

Your doing good T...don't run, don't hide...face it...feel it.

God Bless,
Eric

[PEI]

Ummm, just so you know Eric ... Mach is looking for you ...

Sweetie ... you just did what you always do. You poured your heart into a post and dug deep for someone else. But I know you have been doing your own digging, can't wait to read it. I love your realness (is that a word) and the heart you put into your posts. I'll be watching for it ...

I've since downloaded the song and am going to blast it later. You know how much I love lyrics, how I get really into them.

You know where I am at...you know my demons...you know my fears... I know you have some of the same. We can and We WILL beat these fears...we can and we WILL Face these fears - BECAUSE WE CHOOSE TO. WE CHOOSE light over darkness. We choose to look forward instead of looking backward. We choose to look INWARD instead of looking outward. Thing about that for a second.

Yes I do. I know where you are at, and it's not so different than the landscape in my purple skied world. Those damn demons and fears. And yes, WE WILL. We will face them out of choice, and face them straight on. We will slay those beasts one ugly, dirty fight at a time. And the only way to do this is by looking inward. So 2x4 received, I'm done looking his way. I did what I needed to do to protect the children and I. I will treat him with civility and respect and I will turn my energy back towards me. Where it belongs. WE CHOOSE LIGHT over darkness ... you betcha baby!

And I just can't keep living this way
So starting today, I'm breaking out of this cage
I'm standing up, Imma face my demons
I'm manning up, Imma hold my ground
I've had enough, now I'm so fed up
Time to put my life back together right now

FTR...if some guys from Detroit can do this...well then I am sure a short Canadian chick can. Stand up T and never...never give up.

THIS ^^^^ is my favorite part of the song. This is it in a nutshell. And yes, this short-assed Canadian chick is truly up for the challenge ... I won't quit. I deserve better than a quitter.

I'll throw another song at cha ... this one came in handy today too ... I'll post my favorite part ...

After all of the stealing and cheating
You probably think that I hold resentment for you
But, uh uh, oh no, you're wrong
'Cause if it wasn't for all that you tried to do
I wouldn't know just how capable I am to pull through
So I wanna say thank you

'Cause it makes me that much stronger
Makes me work a little bit harder
It makes me that much wiser
So thanks for making me a fighter
Made me learn a little bit faster
Made my skin a little bit thicker
Makes me that much smarter
So thanks for making me a fighter

~from Fighter by Christina Aguilera

You are not off your rocker, I'm listening ... and feeling and growing ... NO running, NO hiding.
Oh, and thank you.
Again.
((((hugs))))
T

[DestinyUnknown]

PEI - I wanted to drop in. I have been reading your thread today and you are a wonderful and amazing mother! I don't have children myself, but I can feel the warmth and genuine love for your children through your words and actions.

Keep your head high and your heart open to pleasing you.

Something I have learned recently:

"We tend to forget that happiness doesn't come as a result of getting something we don't have, but rather of recognizing and appreciating what we do have.”

My prayers and thoughts go out to you. (((HUGS)))

[PEI]

Thank you DU.

We tend to forget that happiness doesn't come as a result of getting something we don't have, but rather of recognizing and appreciating what we do have.&#148;

My prayers and thoughts go out to you. (((HUGS)))

And thanks for the reminder ... time for me to go back and read my own posts on gratitude. That "Feeding the White Dog" thread is a fave of mine ...

Thank you!
Oh, and girl ... you are an inspiration ... just sayin'.
Stay strong, you've worked hard for it.
Peace
PEI

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Thanks buddy