Hey Sandi, I might not get on here much more this week & you have no clue how much I appreciate your help and kind words you have offered.
I’m having a real hard time this week with the anniversary coming up Sat. I don’t get it last year at this time we were working on making our M stronger.
See I guess I feel that no matter what happens wither I leave her alone or even ask her questions about us. It won’t affect our outcome. I mean it’s been about 9 months since the 2nd D bomb and almost 4 months since I moved out & I haven’t seen anything, but many tears and emotions by both.
Maybe I’m at the grieving stage of Divorce & next would be the acceptance stage. As much as it hurts & I don’t want too but it’s probably a reality of what’s to come.
See I know I can move on and even eventually find someone; the thing is I don’t want to I miss not just my W, I miss my family, and tucking my S in good night.
The only good thing that has come out of this is that I have done things for myself again; instead of putting everyone else before me, I lost myself over the past few years (Doormat). Now I actually feel that I have my confidence back. Although I don't feel it today, I will continue to work on myself though.
Don’t get me wrong I don’t want to give up or shut the door on us. I guess I’m just having a really hard time, kind of like the first week I moved out. I guess they say if you really love someone you set them free. My W has no clue how much I do love her & don’t think she will until it’s all set in stone & done.
Well hope all is well with you and thanks as always Hope!!
