I know you like writing these notes and speeches to your wife. And no matter what I say to convince you they don't mean jack crap to your wife works, I do need to point out one thing here.
Before you do these letters, notes, speeches, get your mind made up and stick to it.
for more than an hour!
Not sure what you mean SMQ. I don't think those two quotes you snipped out are necessarily in disagreement. I should add a line to the first one though, something like "I don't feel right being married while we date others, so I need us to get our legal agreement finalized."
I don't want a D, I'd prefer to work on reconciliation, but if she is refusing to put real effort into it, I'll spend my time investigating other options. I can't put my life on hold. In that case though, I need to pursue D. No open marriage.
Interesting night Saturday. I did see W at the concert. Was a bit awkward at first. W seemed very happy to see me, very friendly, touchy feely. She and her friends ended up hanging out with me and my friends. It was an outdoor festival on a gorgeous night. W and I took a walk together to get some food. She looked stunning, but I kept some distance. My friends were surprised and impressed by the casual nature in which I treated her. We walked past an airbrush tattoo booth, and I told W she should get one. We had a great time looking over the patterns, with not-so-subtle sexual undertones. None really struck our fancy, and our friends were waiting for us, so we moved on.
She had to leave before me, as she had to get home to relieve the babysitter. Felt very weird her leaving me there with my single friends. One of the women in my group later said "There is definitely something going on between you two."
She leaves on Friday with the kids to go to Disney World. Her mother still thinks I should go, my mother is even conflicted about it. My friends think I should not go. W has a plane ticket for me. I feel like I'm in a game of chicken.
