Punkin, glad to read that you fared better with your sleep last night. Do you meditate? When I was sick I would play a meditation on my ipod whenever I woke and it really helped to settle and calm me.
Like you said, the hare and the tortoise is the fable for DBers.......patience is your gift for now. Although the NC is difficult to manage it does help you to develop strength, acceptance of your own company and a way forward.
I'm sure most here would agree that their WAS blamed them for their unhappiness. It takes a long time before they realise that happiness comes from within. My H has expressed that recently and an acknowledgement that I have been his greatest supporter. Eventually they do gain some grasp of the reality.
Make a plan for today and a list of all the things you would like to do. It will help to keep you busy and give you somethings to look forward to.
