Well, I got more sleep last night due to the wonders of modern pharmacology. Still woke up about 4:30. Just laid there and thought.
As H is still so angry about me not signing the waiver, I know now is really not the time to contact him with anything. Makes me sad, as if starting all over again with being dark.
Trying hard to still have some hope, but it is getting clearer and clearer that H thinks I am the root of all his problems and what he needs to be happy is to get away from me. As you all know, that's a hard pill to swallow from someone you love.
