Hi GAG, Thanks for the affirmation. I needed to hear that. Earlier you said that you thought my H was like a shy boy and this almost seems to be the way he is atm. Although reluctant, I have initiated a couple of times and he has accepted. I get the idea that he wants to be in my life in some way but needs to go super, super slow. Therefore, he doesn't initiate but if I do he can't afford to say no cos I might give up on him and/or maybe he really does want to be with us sometimes.
Additionally, a couple of times I have made minor comment about issues and he has accepted my comments and been calm, expressing that I should relax or chill. At the time I wondered what he meant as I felt relaxed but was just expressing my truth which I promised myself I would also do from now on. On reflection I think his relax or chill is to say, " Don't worry, it's all ok. Let's take this slowly."
I know this can all change again tomorrow but I like to get this down as it's good to reflect on down the track.
