Hey Sandi, Sorry to keep bothering you. You are one of the few people that still gives hope to keep going forward that you never know what can happen. With work, school, and trying to keep it together I don’t get on here to post to others or even post like I should. So I can’t thank you enough for your time advice & being a kind friend helping me out. It's been tough journey so far this year.
I have a great IC who at first was our MC back in Feb 09 she has been supportive the whole time of DB. She has especially helped me this year even with the pitfalls and helping me discover myself again. Now I’m at the point of thinking nothing is going to change, and I may have to face that fact. I love my W more than she will ever know. I don’t want to quit as a part of me feels that once I move on it will be done. I know nothing is set in stone but it feels that way.
Yes your right the coffee date is probably perusing. We just need to get our situation with our S much better. See the thing I don't understand is yes she still probably has feelings for OM or still involved which I don’t know (but think not).
It’s what she said back during our blow out in July about the separation agreement & when I did asked if she 2nd thoughts & she said yes , but we will probably end up here in a few years again.(any thoughts about that)? Why would she say yes? Or how I could forgive her after what she has done.
I guess I just feel that this is coming down to the final straw. I feel stupid that one part of me says keep fighting and have hope. While the other says she has already let go and isn’t looking back, so I should as well.
As far as the meditation Do you think I should tell W I would like to set an appointment up? Or is that a bad Idea.
Sorry my head is spinning; I even had to ask my professor for an extension on my term paper it was just for another day, but luckily she understood my situation and said it was ok.
Sat. is our anniversary & I will get through it. I'm not giving up I probably know when I talk to my W nothing has changed even if I did bring those thing up.
Maybe I just have to accept this is what she wants. I know my life will go on either way I just feel that we are both selling ourselves short of something that could be great..
Well as always thank you for your help your friend Hope
