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Just when i think i'm doing ok, wham rate back down to horrible.

daughter 3 was sick all this weekend. so we are still up at 1130pm, she gets her fingers stuck in the desk draw, luckily didn't not break anything, or wake her brother.

i blew up, i spent the whole weekend, vacuming, doing laundry getting my luches ready to go for the week, cooked 1 dinner somewhat ahead of time, put all the toys and stuff away and see how she went and pulled out all the dvd's when just last night i organized them all.

i lost it, crying angry, saying horrible things about her father, he has no freaking clue. he lives with his parents, his mother does his laundry, she cooks for him, he does not have to clean, he just rolls out of bed when he wants, yells to his mom, make me this do this for me and she does it.

here i am with no car, no phone i barely get any sleep, trying to get my work done since i leave early, i'm buring the candles at both ends, i fall asleep at work while i'm teaching, it is soooo much on my own.

sure h for 3 days picked up kids in the am, but he takes them back to his house and can just go back to bed, his mom is there no matter what, but from their births, it's get up in the middle of the night, feed my lil boy, get up at 5 am, get ready for work, get their clothes ready(if not done night before) go to work all day with 20 min lunch break- i pump so son can have breast milk, from second i get off of work, it's both kids, home get dinner, feed dogs cats, try to keep house somewhat neat, not to mention the lovely weeds now growing out front with broke weedeater, try to exercise loose weight, and on top of it all DON'T BE ANGRY WITH H WHEN HE PICKS us up. HOW?????someone please tell me HOW????