Wife filed for divorce...Is there still hope?

[LSG]

Journaling (Sunday, August 22, 2010):

Today was a little strange. S woke up early, and then I woke up D about 7:45 am. Had S ready and fed. D was not hungry, and then W comes out about 8:15 am. D and S were watching TV with me. W starts asking if they are hungry and so on. I went and made my bed. Kids started playing with me. W was trying to buy a backpack for them for school. I played with them and watched TV most of the morning. W wanted to take the kids, but they wanted to go and stay. I told them to go and have fun. I went to talk to my dad, and the kids came back inside and decided to stay home. I was so happy and glad. I did not expect that. I hung up with my Dad and spent time with kids. D said W would not buy her something is she did not go. D was upset. I made them some lunch and myself too. D called W and asked her to pick somethings up, and W was super sweet then. W came home with an hour before church.

I took kids to church and asked to have a prayer said for me to find a job. Pastor talked to me about my D and said he will help with gas or whatever they can afford. He also said he will try to help with the job too. I tell everyone that I need help with a job. I have not found anything yet, but I will not give up.

Went to doggie park and then came home and showered the kids. S want to go in the bedroom with W and I said okay. D stayed in the living room with me. I went to take S to bed and W said she would do, but I took him anyways, and she was slapping my hands. She I have been witht the kids all day, and she wants time. I told her "this is not a contest." She muttered something. I said "I do not want to even talk to you." She said I would not have to soon. I guess that is why she was selling some books today. She is readying for a move.

I put D to bed and looked for jobs online today. It is good that she is asleep, so I have some time to get my stuff done tonight.