The year of not my problem

[AJM]

Yeah, I imagine that fairy tale will come along from time to time.
Interesting to think this is closer to who she really is vs. her trying to be different for me. That would mean she was right: I do deserve better

Which of course I do. I get that even clearer every day. I'm surprised I still get more clarity. I was pretty clear before, but as my self-esteem and confidence reach newer heights, I realize I am really better off without her. Still, I do miss her sometimes and I really hate it for the kids. But I cannot deny that I am better off without her. Or maybe it's just that I'm better off without the new her. Cause the new her is really a lying, scheming, POS kind of person that I would never want to be around. I also wonder sometimes if she knows that and acts like that to repel me. Hmm.. It worked.

It still sucks to have to put up with her though. I'd like for her to just be gone and let me live my life. Instead of the controlling and weird crap. She made my daughter call me to let me know my daughter was coming by. Said she needed to. I know that's because she thinks I have somebody over, but I would never do that to my kids. I told my daughter she doesn't need to call to let me know she is coming home. She laughed cause she already knew that.

Anyway, reading an interesting book by Dr Dobson. Not a bad read and he really goes into the dynamics and ties it in with scripture. That's helpful for me to help me gain perspective.

Had a great today. Did next to nothing and enjoyed that. I could get used to that pace if I'm not careful....

AJ