Still trying to find my way

[Mystik]

Went to church this morning at my grandmother's church, they were having mass for my grandfather. The homily was about discipline. And not discipline like you do your child, but the discipline necessary to go to the gym every day, the discipline to not gorge yourself on a bag of candy. He also talked about how God will use crises in your life to help you grow spiritually. Which I can appreciate His idea, but did I really have to lose my husband to get closer to Him? So anyway, a lot of what he said echoed what everyone here has said, and I think the pieces are finally starting to click together.

I still don't know what to do about filing or not filing, and the money owed me but I'm trying to let go. I'm slowly realizing that maybe Dan needs to be on this personal journey as well, to restore his relationship with God.

As a disclaimer: Just because I got it today doesn't mean tomorrow I'll still have it.