Thank you all for the support and words of wisdom.

The boys' godfather drove 12 hours yesterday to come be with us, to have people in our lives who will do that for us is truly amazing. We went to a local music on the lawn event and I even danced! H doesn't like to dance, or we never did, but I did and I liked it. Probably too many jiggly parts, but going to work on that.

Yes, I must stop the nag/beg/comment/snide comments. They are all unattractive and pointless. He isn't listening anyway, so why do I waste my time?

He spend the night at OWs. That just sucks. I know it is a useless tune, but it is so UNFAIR! Why, when I've been faithful, worked to get us to this point where I could move anywhere in the country his job takes us, he decides to bail, he said the separation was just too hard for him! Oh, please. (this is all rhetorical, I know it is unfair and life is cruel, just getting it off my chest instead of nagging to him).

So Goals.

No contact, stop making up stupid excuses to email him in the middle of the night so his blackberry will beep and disturb him and OW. Just stop. No phone, no text, no email, unless absolutely necessary. Not fake necessary.

Be pleasant. When he comes over to see the kids, be upbeat and strong. No snide comments, save snide comments for girlfriends when boys are nowhere around.

When weak and mushy, come and post here. No begging! He knows how I feel, he knows where I am, enough said.

Find a support group here, need to meet someone in this new town.

Make goals for GAL. Steal MM78's Mission MILF goal. Love that one.

Thank you everyone for the support and words to help me get through this, and not just get through, but hopefully someday thrive.

Dagny


Me 48, H49, M24, S14, S11
DB #1 4/2002-8/2003
Bomb #2 August 2010 & he moved out
Living with OW