I understand what you are saying. Of course you hurt for him - you LOVE him - he is your HUSBAND!! You took vows - better or worse/sickness or health -you believed those words and you still do. Of course you are STRONG. Only the strongest are presented these challenges.
If you want to have an R talk with him ~ only YOU know if it is the right time. I think what everyone here feels (and I may be wrong on this) is that if you do you have to do it with NO EXPECTATION that RIGHT NOW it will change the situation or suddenly bring him back. It may HURT YOU more than it helps you at this point. However if you understand that - then move forward with the words you want to say to him.
You are a strong, kind, and beautiful person. NOTHING he ever does can change that. You are blessed with kids and grands and YOU haven't missed a moment. Think of 10 years down the road when you can look in the mirror and say that you didn't lose a minute of those blessings.
Thinking of you!
IB
M-48/XH-48 M=25/T=28 years Ds-24,22/S-18 D - 3/11 A Day at a Time
