On two ends of the world..

[ris]

I had a very long conversation with H yesterday that left me wondering whether the man I talked to was really my H!! In the most positive way. We talked about many things, he said he can't wait to have me there... We also talked about future plans and he kept on wanting to do things together! What happened to the guy that was always independent and I had to ask him to do things with me? He suggested that we go to a workshop together that we were both interested in and said it would help us bond on another level He was also very sweet and caring, gave me credit for things.. it was amazing!

We also talked about sex, now he said that I'm extremely sexually attractive to him but "there's something missing". I don't know what to think about this and to be fair he doesn't either. We're going to work on other things and I hope maybe that "something" will turn up. It was a very open conversation and his willingness to work through things was very apparent. I also talked about some things that bugged me and he owned up to them. Very good talk I think.

We flirted a lot and he admitted that despite that mysterious missing, he's been thinking of me sexually in the last few days. I take it as a good thing and I hope that things fall into place there as we work on the entirety of our relationship.

One thing that almost made me fall off my chair was when he said "It is my job as a husband not to bring you down, but to bring you up" . I don't mean to put him down but it's the first time I heard him owning up to being a husband. I'm amazed by the changes in him and very thankful for them. I know he must have been working on himself. It's wonderful. I seriously feel that the guy I talked to last night is better than the one I fell in love with