To Tell or Not to Tell

[LRT Land]

My news seems so trivial compared to Goodman's, yet in a way I too feel my R hangs in the balance. H has already pulled away a bit. I am anxiously awaiting the blood work while my body continues to prepare for this journey. It is definitely hitting me harder this time - don't know if that's because of my age or because gender is different or because it's not viable. I'm trying not to get to attached to an outcome yet. The doctor seems to think I'll know soon.

I do worry about the impact on my M if the pg goes forward. I'm not sure H can handle another being to share my affection.

We've not been intimate since I shared the news. I've had zero interest and physically feel bad, and he, I suspect and yes a total mind read, is withdrawing because he feels the pg will bring back our ssm.

Why did the universe through this in my path? Why now? I'm trying to understand and accept, but I am really struggling.