I'm trying really hard to not be down tonight.

My kids are growing up so fast. They, especially my DD, LOVE stories of things they said/did when they were smaller that was funny (there are a lot of them). They've always been very bright and I have realized through telling these stories to them that their memories of childhood are not as good as I had percieved them to be. Some things that happened that I was sure they would remember for a lifetime they don't. For some reason that saddens me.

DS is out of town with OMH as he travels in his line of work and an opportunity presented itself for a once in a lifetime experience for DS. OMH is a pilot for a very wealthy man who is part owner of a professional football team (among many other things). DS was invited to accompany them by air to tonight's pre-season game and be their guest in their skybox. I was TMed a few minutes ago and learned he is now on the sidelines with the team. Of course, I let him go along.

This evening, as as DS was getting herself ready to leave me to go to her mother's I commented I would miss her. I continued that she and DS will both be away and they are my family. DS responded, "Why don't you get married like mom did so you can have a family all the time?"

I was struck by her unstated but implied belief that one can just get another spouse and presto, you have a new family. To add insult to injury my mother commented on the phone after she learned DS was out of town with OMH, "So OMH is DS's daddy this weekend?" I calmly responded, "No, OMH is not DS's daddy."


"Fear is the mind-killer" Muad'Dib
Me 53, XW 44, DD 14, DS 12
Bomb and OM 12/15/06
Separated 01/02/07
Divorced 05/13/08
X married OM(OMH) 08/2009
Married 06/09/13