To Tell or Not to Tell

[LRT Land]

Goodman - your timing is really good. H is at a conference today but I talked to him briefly this morning. I told him what the doctor said about not knowing if the pg is good until at least early next week. He told me after I made my decision he would tell me his, which left me frustrated as he is often this way. Yet then I make a decision and he'll tell me what he thinks I want to hear. He is not at all direct about expressing his wants/needs. I am going to try and validate when he gets home. I really do want to know how he feels. Maybe, like me, he is trying to stay somewhat neutral since we don't really know what's up yet.

Physically I feel down right awful. Bloated, bigger, hard to breathe, bladder issues. Yes, all ths already. The bloat happened with my first, but everything seems worse this time. I'm also more tired than usual. SInce I was feeling really good physically, it's rather daunting to think of 9 more months of this. If the baby could just "arrive" without the pg I would feel much more enthusiastic.

I'm also worried how it will impact my hormones. My desire has already taken a hit, and I'm sure this is a concern of H's due to our fall into a ssm following the last pg. Also, being this much older and dealing with night feedings and wake ups. On the other hand, it is an absolute blessing and miracle. H is a wonderful father. I even told the lawyer that when I talked to him.

Thank you so much for checking in. I will keep posting as I move along this journey, however short or long it is.

I hope that your "discombobulatig external event" is positive as opposed to negative. I will watch for your post.