Just don't know what to do anymore

[Nvrgivup]

Thanks again Puppy, and the others as well. Ya know I crept these fourms for a couple years without ever posting. I'm not sure why I waited so long? I appreciate the input and the support. @ puppy, I was certainly one of the ones making the same ol mistakes over and over again. I had read DB and many other books, I had followed the fourms and gone to a councellor, but it seemed my instinct to be a "fixer" always took over. But I do feel now like I have finally taken the advice to heart, and I realize the importance of taking care of me. I'm GALing, (going fishing with a new buddy tomorrow) and am focusing on re-directing my impulses to send a text or an email to her. @ tulsa, to be honest I felt pretty terrible about myself for a looong time. Some of it was from others, but for the most part I was feeling sorry for myself, I wasn't doing anything for me, and focused every ounce of energy trying to win her back, and the repetetive failure at that just made me feel worse. I know I've turned a corner now. I was a pretty good guy before all this, and I lost it for too long. I'm looking forward to getting "me" back and just having some fun again. PS. zero contact with the stbxw for about 9 days now. It may not sound like much, but it is a big step for me. I'll just write here instead from now on. Thank all.