Thank you Lance, but the only communication between us has been when he was demanding I sign that legal document. Nothing else. Nothing about me other than I was getting on with my life, why can't he? He is 80 miles away and we do not see each other. He has no way of 'seeing' any change on my part. All we have is words, and I realized I have never expressed to him that I still love him and would like to work this out. Never. He didn't give me the chance.