Still trying to find my way

[Mystik]

TT, not exactly sure why. I tend to have a self-destructive streak. Things might be going well for me and then I'll do something to mess it all up, usually that is not my intent but had I thought things through I could have foreseen it happening that way, if that makes any sense. And some of it is pride, I don't want people thinking that I'm the screw-up. I think that enough for everyone. And some of it is hurt, I want to lash out and hurt them back.

TimeHeals, I think you've got it. He thinks he's doing me a favor and doesn't realize that it's actually hurting me.