Just don't know what to do anymore

[Nvrgivup]

I get it Puppy. I think that is what I was trying to say. I need to stop spending energy on if it is going to "work" and just do "it". Since my last post I did spend a lot of time looking through some of the others you recommended. I did find it helpful, and actually have felt quite a bit better about the whole thing. I know the "roller coaster" analogy gets used a lot, but boy, I spend an evening say working on letting go, then waking up the next morning already thinking about what "I can do to fix this" I'm finding if I don't focus on moving on, my mind wants to slip back to the default by itself. Does it just get easier with time?